We all know what it means when a blogger falls off the face for a few months, right? 😉
Our newest little bean is due to arrive in late May. I am 17 weeks and change, and slowwwwwly starting to feel the first trimester fog lift, and sometimes even finding myself capable of staying awake past 8:30 pm.
The kids are super excited. Bridget tells anyone who will listen that, “Mommy has a baby in her tummy-” although she sometimes gets confused and tells them that she has a baby in her tummy, which is a little awkward.
Will is absolutely adamant that this baby is a boy. When I ask, “Yes, but if the baby is a girl, what should we call her?” he responds, “Let’s call it a boy.” If he’s wrong, my parents will get to break the news to him while we are in the hospital. Lucky them.
Anticipating the arrival of this baby while Blaise’s due date approaches is a disconcerting experience. We miss Blaise and wish we were going to get to hold him in a couple of weeks. At the same time, it would be impossible for this baby to exist if Blaise were still here. I know this is not an unusual situation, or one that millions of other families haven’t experienced, but it’s a lot to wrap your head around.
We are still Team Green Bean and won’t be finding out who wins this little tie-breaker at our anatomy scan in a couple of weeks. We can’t wait to meet him or her in May, and see the kids get to be big kids and “help” with the baby. And I look forward to continuing my incremental return to the land of living!